Hen An Jing

要說得多華麗
才能說出最默契的默契
我在你身邊
呼吸都沉默
你卻懂我每個情緒

這世界太熱鬧
怎麽傾聽
一顆心呼喚另一顆的聲音
這世界再熱鬧
還好我們
剛好在這裏剛好很安靜

所有感受不用形容
已經那麽懂
所有的感動是安靜的心動

這世界再熱鬧
也沒關係

When will?

All of you may say im stupid or whatever.
But i cant lie ,cant lie with this feeling.
This feeling is killing me.
You don't know what i feel,do you?
You mean to much to me. I can't handle it.
Both of us are stubborn.
I dont know when the problem will be solved clearly.
You begin and you must take the consequense.
-.-
i know those things aren't gonna be the same ever again.
I know that CRYING won't make you here.
So,what if i cant forget you?
Just because you apologized,doesnt mean my heart is magically fixed.
hope for the best!
God,please let me get out from this situation or make it better.

If . . .

I can't think clearly now.
I'm tired of this situation.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of thinking about our memories.
But,i just cant get over you.
I never being like this before.
You used to come to my class and sat beside me.
You used to hold my hand.
You used to teach me when i cant do my lesson.
You used to call me with that name. NOW? Just sometimes.
Ohh.
When will it happen again?
*HOPE HOPE HOPE*
i want to go back to where we started.
Im crying again and you cant comfort me now.
How many tears have fallen from my eyes because of you?
If i can start all over again , . . .

Can't describe my feeling

I dont cry anymore for these 2 days.
But deep inside my heart,i am still SAD.
-____-
i can't describe my feeling.
I just want to go back to the past,the day we're still a couple.
I wish i could.
I hope we still can be a couple one day,maybe tomorrow,next week,next month,next year or whenever.
Anyway,tomorrow,sutomoers are going to face the killer exam.
What i must focus now is about my lessons.
I must study hard.
My score must better than pb1.
Goodluck sutomoers!
Bubyee !

I am (not) fine

Nah,this is my 2nd post for today.
Now,i just can share with my blog.
This is what i really feel inside my heart.
Im not feeling well right now.
Im sick of this situation.
I always say i'm fine to you.
I put :) on the last of my text.
Yes,i always do it.
Actually i want you to reply no,you re not fine.
Yes TRUE! Im not fine.
I am so confused why you're so dare to make all of this.
Is this the best way?
Is this the best decision?
According to me,it is NOT!
And i dont want your friends and my friends fight just because of our problem.
If i have nothing to do,my tears always flow down.
I learn to just let it flow by the time,but it's too hard.
Do you know im hurt?
Do you know how's my feeling?
Please,my friends. Dont misunderstand this problem,he's not as bad as you think.

I'm not that STRONG!

I just gotten up.
And these 2 days,i start my day with tears.
I broke up with him.
He said that he wants to study seriously first,he wants to concentrate on his study.
Ahh. I'm trying to understand your reasons,i'm trying to understand YOU !
I know actually you don't want like this too.
I trust you ,i hope those are all of the true reasons and no other reasons.
Actually i'm sick of this.
I am trying to be STRONG.
I am trying to not cry anymore.
I am trying to make you as my friend.
I am trying to smile in front of my friends.
I don't want they say i'm WEAK!
But inside,i'm HURT !
I'm not that strong.
You know??
I hope you know.
I never thought about this problem before.
We didn't fight but when i received your message my heart is like erghh.
I just asked you not to change although now we're just FRIEND ,don't make me dissapointed for the second time.
Thanks for hurting me.
I can learn something from this experience.
Thanks for everything.
And thanks to my friends that always there for me when im sad.
And now i hope you're a friend that always there for me when i'm sad.
I hope you can be a good friend for me.
I love you !

10-10-10?

Today is 10-10-10.
And it is really not my day.
It's not a good day for me.
Im not in good mood from this afternoon and till NOW.
Yesss,NOW 10 p.m!
I'm crying in my bedroom now.
My tears is still falling down.
I dont know why.

I love you boy !
I miss you.
<3

FRIENDS?

this post is about FRIENDS.
According to you,what does 'FRIENDS' mean?

A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway. -- Fr. Jerome Cummings

Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends. -- Cindy Lew

Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure. -- Jewish Saying

"Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you." -- Elbert Hubbard  

"Friendship needs no words..." -- Dag Hammarskjold. 

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.-- Walter Winchell

Friends are needed both for joy and for sorrow. -- Samuel Paterson

Friendship is the golden thread that ties the heart of all the world.-- John Evelyn

"A friend loves at all times." -- The Bible: Proverbs 17, 17.  

"Friends show their love in times of trouble..." -- Euripides (408 B.C.) 

 

"One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives." -- Euripides (408 B.C.) 

 

"A good friend is my nearest relation." -- Thomas Fuller (1732) 

 

"My friend is he who will tell me my faults in private." -- Solomon Ibn Gabirol 

 

"Your friend is your needs answered." -- Kahil Gibran 

 I have some GOOD & CLOSE FRIENDS.

Yufendy , Jessica Surya, Hartaty Wijaya, Ivan Sumarlie, Andry Susanto, Vandani ,Steven, Billie.

actually we are having some problem in our friendship.

I'm confused.

I wont tell you about the problem. 

We just hope YOU can change your selfish.

YOU always causes problems in our FRIENDSHIP.

GOOD NIGHT WORLD !

GOOD NIGHT FRIENDS !

GOOD NIGHT READERS !

went out with the old members in my boarding house,

I went out with Liana and Vera this afternoon.
Yeah,they are the old members in our boarding house like i wrote in my previous post.
Not a big differences from them.
Vera is still a very very cute girl.
Now she's 21 y.o but she looks like a JHS student.
Can you imagine her super cute face?
;D
and Liana is still the same ,she's talkative.
;p
bytheway,didi said that my chemistry teacher won't come from tomorrow till thursday.
oh yeayy,i will enjoy my class.
LOL.
i think not only me,but all my classmates.
;p
bubye.
G.O.O.D.N.I.G.H.T AND S.W.E.E.T.D.R.E.A.M.S
;D

Happy birthday Ivan !

I just back from Mbox.
Ivan treated us for the dinner.
Actually his birthday is on 23rd september.
But,he celebrated it tonight.
We (me,js,henk,amok) lied to him. We said that we couldnt join . And,he updated on twitter that he was dissapointed.
HAHAHAHA.

But then,
tadaaa . .
We entered the karaoke room ,where he was inside with a birthday cake at js's hand.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVAN SUMARLIE.
Maybe he was surprised.
LOL.

anyway,im planning to go out with my old members (i mean,they have graduated SHS) in my boarding house tomorrow.
I miss them!
Oke,till here.
Seeya.
Goodnight!